Mira wrote:So far, I've gotten good feedback,
OK, I'm going to go a bit zen here for a minute....to believe good feedback you must already believe you deserve it.
...aaaannnd we're back in the room. So what do I mean by that little circular bit of BS? Basically, at the point you can use feedback to measure the quality of your work, you largely don't need it. What a wonderful irony, eh? I've found that self-doubt (In terms of doubting your own opinion) effectively will taint everything to whatever degree. So if you have a lot of self doubt about yourself, searching for external validation will only return external data distorted through the prism of that same self doubt. It's inescapable.
Why? Well, there's a scientific word/theory/idea called paradigm shift. In really basic terms it means that an idea (like the world is flat) can establish fundamental and workable principles and everything that doesn't follow is considered an error. This continues until the errors become great enough that someone rejcts the flat-earth "paradaigm" and builds a new idea (Like the world is round) that builds its own set of principles. The important part is that this shift
IS NOT POSSIBLE TO UNDERSTAND when using the original principles.
So how does this apply? Well, if you start with the principle that your own opinion is flawed, and then look for external opinions, you're then struck with a problem: everyone's opinions must also be flawed (some more than others obviously). So how do you then value judge the level of flawedness (?), especially when you yourself already distrust your own ability to value judge? So you seek opinions on the opinions you've just asked for......and now you see the problem. You're stuck in a paradigm of doubt. From there the path leads to searching of objective, absolute,
flawless fact where there basically arn't any.
Therefore, the only way to escape is to step outside of the original principles, say "My Opinion is as valid as anyone elses" and rebuild from there. The upshot should be that you stop worrying about whether the feedback says "You are good/bad/ok/weird etc", because you've already made that judgment yourself. You can then focus on the why's and the how's that feedback came about, and hopefully divine some fundamental facts about your writing that you can then apply during any edits.
As much as I understand the process, I haven't even got close. For the first time I'm in the process of critiquing at the moment and I'm doing my damnedest to not treat it as a qualitive excercise: How many people say "it's good"! Some days are better than others. Somedays I doubt everything, so negative feedback I discount as a misunderstood or mistaken, and positive feedback as just meaningless cheerleading. To be honest I don't think I'll ever succeed and be able to trust my own assessment of my writing, but I'm hoping I can fake it effectively...=0)
Sheesh, I ramble! - Anyway, to surmise, trying to self-evaluate is kinda pointless: you either can or you can't. Either way you're better off ignoring the "Is it working" feedback and concentrate on the "Why is/isn't it working" elements. Because regardless of the overall quality of the writing, those things will always matter.